Valentine Day

Hello it's me hahhahaha
I can't imagine that this blog will be appeared again
The most hilarious thing is that I'm able to look back to my so called“love life”
And here I am writing some nonsense or feelings?!

Yesterday was the FIRST time receiving flowers among so many people
These bouquets are from Daniel Ke
It was kinda suprising to me haha but yeah it's cool

Yesterday was my grandpa's birthday and this was the first tme celebrating without him
hope that you are doing well in heaven <3

Dear me,
always step out of your comfort zone
overcome your fear  of being judged for your mistakes

tomorrow will be the first time when my friends will be coming to my house
kinda excited
thanks vaani, meiyee, huangxiu and amanda
hope everything goes well tmr

bye

love,
Li Xuan

Your birthday

First I have to wish you happy birthday:) happy birthday to that cutest guy 

I do love you so much but I think everything is gotta to end now. ON THIS MOMENT 

Before today, I always wish that your birthday comes faster so that I can give the present to you and I thought the distance between us will be more closer. But I was wrong so wrong. 

I think you don't like what I've written in the letter. Haih 

I even thought I have chance but actually no. Why am I being so dumb 

You try to flirt and you somehow find topics to chat with me. And somehow I'll be thinking that whether you used me or not. Because you keep asking me anything to study

After chee sent that conversation between you and him I was so in love with you 

But everything you said was just a simple word and it doesn't mean anything to you

Just because you're happy so you said whatever you like and somehow hurt someone accidentally  

You say you were sorry last time. How about these you done to me? That's even more hurt and every everything 

Your birthday night you started not to chat with me. But I'm just silly enough to text you 

And you just like 敷衍 me. Okay the next day is the same too.

After exam I texted you. You did not reply. Ohh fine.

Yesterday was 19.10.2014. I asked you to tell me the truth what's going on make you treat me like this. You said that's my own fault on how I think. Today I want you to be true but you don't reply. Okay.

I'm so done with you. Please do not pretend that you're sorry. You don't mean that. 

I love you and I don't asked for anything from you. I just hope that you will one day find out my best part that's all. 

It may hard. It's okay. But why do you want to hurt me once.

You hurt me. You apologized. I forgave. And now you do the same thing. Hurt me even harder.

Why hurt a girl who would never hurt you?

If I have a time machine, I would not let you or anyone else give me such fake hope.

If I have a chance to kill a man, I'll kill you. Then I'll suicide too.

You don't know what's love. You've never get hurt by someone. You never really know how to love a person

One day karma will hit you badly. But when karma hits you, and I still love you, I'll still lend a helping hand to you. You know what's the reason? Because I love you. 

You probably don't care but what I can only say is no one can now replace you in my heart.

I miss you but you seem just fine without me

I literally think about you all the time 

Next year, if you're in different school, please don't hurt anyone 

I hope that I'm the only one who get hurt by you

Don't ever do what you did wrong in Kuen Cheng

Wish you could have a peaceful life 

Study hard, work hard.

I'll be there for you anytime you need someone to accompany you 

This is how I love you 

Don't ever forget it

Once upon a time, I love you so much

I'll be trying to move on.

Don't worry

I'm not going to annoy you anymore 

I hope when you see Sticky, you'll have a thought of me 

And please please please don't dump what I did to you

Don't ever judge my love to you

You may not appreciate but don't judge.

Thanks for having a crush on me once

It's time for me to move on.

Goodbye my lover 

You'll no longer find out that no one will love you like I did 

Tell me if you ever cared , if a single thought for me was spared

Tell me when you lie in bed, do you think of something I once said

放不下你是我活该

我相信总有一天你会在我心里慢慢变得不重要

Same topic and it's you, Tiong Kai Yen.

We chat yesterday. I'm happy with that. You told me that you once like me. How great if you still like me hahah :/ 

Too bad, you're leaving next year. But anyway I still hope that next year I still can see you in school. Please try your best in this coming exam pleaseee. I'm like a beggar now omgg :x 

You told me you're regret for everything. Because of her haih. You said you have made a wrong decision on chasing perfection and your results had all fucked up. 

You apologized and I forgave. I'm confused about your sincerity. My friend said that you feel guilty and so do I. But at last you are still that 自以為是, you called me not to be happy until I can't fall asleep. Actually I'm not happy but feeling sad hah. What if you still like me now hah. That's my own imagination :x 

I felt sad and disappointed because you rather watch your batman and you don't want to study. I'm not your anyone, maybe I'm just an annoying fly to you :/ 

I told you I can't move on, then you call me to continue. I don't understand what was your thought upon me. Maybe I'm annoying. If yes I apologize. I do feel myself annoying too.

You hate people calling your name or what. Yesterday I said all the best to you Tiong Kai Yen. Then you say don't use your name. Sometimes I can't really know how you think :x

My only wishes to you is to hope that I can still see you in kuencheng next year. I will pray for you to pass your exam. I hope your exam will be easy and you can get good grades c:

Your birthday is coming soon. I had already buy you a sticky. I'm afraid that you don't care and just share it with all your friends. I'm selfish on that I hope you will appreciate it and maybe as memories. 

Same feelings I know you don't care. You feel me annoying hah.

Anyway your "What if i say i hv too?" made my day :> 

Good luck to you. 

May the Lord bless you and keep you.

May the Lord make his face to shine upon you, 

and be gracious to you.

May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, 

and give you peace.

Hope to see you next year. I love you :> 

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我就是那麼的不可理喻

我就只有三個好朋友

你要我怎樣

三個都有男朋友了

你們都說會陪我的

結果還不是一樣嗎

說什麼朋友比較重要

你們跟男朋友在一起時

我難道一直纏住你們嗎

你們不介意 但是你們的男朋友介意啊

但彭詠恩，我還是要謝謝你

謝謝你所說的那句話

老實說我本來就不相信什麼好朋友不好朋友的

是認識了你們 我才稍微相信了

小學那群所謂的好朋友都是在背後說我壞話的人

講一套 做又另外一套

說我挑撥離間 我哪有 是你自己說的 我只不過是配合罷了

結果你們和好了 卻說我在背後挑撥離間 哪有這樣的道理

我把你們當好朋友 你們卻把我當狗屁

初一的時候 

所謂的好朋友都在初二時少說話了

下課老師遲放 你們都自己去了食堂

然後我傻傻地去找你們

可能我又在後面班 比較少話題 就漸漸疏遠了

初二年中至年尾時

我認識了馬海真和梁詩婷

我們成了不錯的朋友 

初三不同班了 我還以為我們就不再是好朋友了

因為你們自己都會有自己的好朋友

但是謝謝你們 沒有捨棄我

依舊把我當成好朋友

直到現在

我知道我這樣說李臻卓是我的錯

但是我真的很討厭為甚麼昨天明明是答應了陪我

但他的一句沒有朋友就一起走了

幸好李敏杰沒來 不然我可又要獨自地走了

馬海真 是 我是有不開心你和他在一起了

我也不知道為甚麼

就只是不爽

你覺得我不可理喻吧 沒關係 我理解

彭詠恩 我們是去年認識的

雖然今年比較少說話了

我還是把你當成好朋友

謝謝你 你告訴我不要忘記彭詠恩

去年謝謝你把妳和李道權的某些時間陪我

但今年不行了 我知道李道權在你心裡是很重要的

我也不好意思再霸佔了

真的真的謝謝你:3 

李翠玲真的跟我一樣嗎

雖然他的兩個好朋友都有男朋友了

但是他有別的好朋友嘛 

所以有點分別咯

我是霸道

我是不可理喻

我只是不想失去你們

好朋友真的有長久嗎？

我不知道

我們又可以成為那長久的嗎？

我也不知道

謝謝你們這三位沒有捨棄我

我當然也希望我在妳們心目中是有地位的

對不起

對於我的霸道，任性和一切一切的不好

說真的感謝我們可以認識

是你們讓我知道好朋友的意義

雖然有時會有爭執

Tired of crying...

看了兩部戲 《最美的時光》和《來自星星的你》

兩部戲都很好看

這兩部戲也沒有說很感動

但我還是哭了zzz

最近這幾天都不懂為甚麼一直哭

剛剛寫寫下又流淚了 好像又要哭了

發狗癲了我

還是淚腺太發達

真煩

《最美的時光》

陸勵成很好

陪蘇蔓度過了很多事

即使知道蘇蔓不會愛上他

他為他做的東西很多很多

《來自星星的你》

都敏俊和千頌伊也很好

哎呀 不懂怎樣形容那種感覺

看了就知道都敏俊怎樣守護千頌伊

金秀賢真是很帥啊

Sometimes I'll think about if I have a guy treat me like this

But I have no good looks or anything else but silly and rude personality

I really hope that one day a guy will protect me like this

I always wish that someone will care about me

Do silly things with me together

Just like these both movies

I'm crying again now

Maybe I know what's the reason for crying these few days

Because I know that this kind of love story will not happen on me

還有一個夢想就是去整容

Exam ended today.

Like finally. Exam ended today.

Lol why did I cry this morning zzz sien larh

Fucka bk. haha I thought I can get at least A in my bk test

Ewwwww it disappoint me seriously and I don't have enough time to do

I was stucked at the trial balance

My T account was all wrong. All put in opposite place so sh

I'm afraid that I'll fail my exam zzz

Met you once today ❤️💔

You did not see me, luckily.

But I want us to meet like face to face haha although you ignore me

I'm so fucka right

Although you ignore me, say sohai things about me 

I still like you ewwww 

Sometimes I hate myself for caring too much

Haizz I know that you only like long hair girls

I so knew it XD ( khor khien joo thought me this sentence xP )

Hahahhaahah are you hanging out with friends today?

Shi yee or Faye ah? 

Hahhahahahha none of mine concern

Yeah yeah not my business 

You look funny after you changed your spec :p 

But I still like you like usual ha ha 

Hmmm why these few days keep on meeting you

I think it's because the gate that you usually used to walk out from the school was closed for these days

Lol hahahaha thanks god XD 

Are you happy about your life without my disturbance 

I hope that you can have a pretty happy life no matter with who or without who

Stay happy haha

Btw, my curse wasn't strong enough lea

Even sucks too ewwww haha 

You dislike me

You antipathy me 

): saddddddaaa 😥

6 months.

Stop being that gorgeous.

I want to get over you seriously.

I don't want to love you anymore.

My heart is tired now.

Let me go, please.

I've adored you for almost half years.

And you don't ever give me a damn. :<

Alright it's my own problem.

Faye ah so shhhhhhh

I always envy those lucky girls you like.

I'm jealousing now you know.

I'm gonna die of heartache.

I should give my heart a rest,

Don't think too much and move on.

Sometimes I feel like I'm disturbing you.

I watch you every recess and sometimes before class.

I often annoy Cteng and sandar to accompany me to see you

I knew that no matter what I do, I still can't make you appreciate it

Will there any miracles happen between us? 

I'm cursing you XD 

Tiong Kai Yen 💕

Come come come!

Come to chat with me.

Come to find me during recess.

You'll realize that I've a cute personality XD 

You'll fall for my everything :p

You'll have a crush on me soon XD

You'll love me as much as I love you :P

Lastly, you just can't unlove me XD 

Hahhahahhaha :B